February 15, 2011
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still gone
Still in Mexico, though as hard as I've been trying to avoid the internet because I'm on holiday my head is full of nonsense that's Facebook worthy. I go home on Friday and to be honest I'm looking forward to it. There's nothing like spending a couple of weeks in a different country to rekindle an appreciation for home. I'm not not enjoying my time here. In fact I'll be sad to leave, though they are for petty reasons...like the weather. Truth be told, I get bored and even irritable. There's always people coming over or joining us on the beach. It sounds antisocial to say this bothers me, but I'm telling you, during the day I'm hard pressed to find quiet time. Even what little alone time I had with Nate was spent with both of us reading and him blaring his drum and bass music. Nate would get on my case about "suffering in silence" if I mentioned to him that that drove me crazy, but honestly if I were to speak up about every little thing I wanted people to not do or whatever I would be a serious killjoy and I don't want to be "that guy".
Anyway, this trip has been pretty up and down. I'm outside of my comfort zone and zone I'm not in charge of. I'm surrounded by people older than my parents and those who are my age are all men. I don't have a single female friend my age here and it would have been nice to take that friend, say "adios" and just go do our own thing. But sadly, it's not something I can do.
Ack! All this isn't helped by the fact that my cycle reset while I was down here so I was bothered by general grumpiness and ridiculous pangs of guilt over nothing...well, over feeling like I was making a nuisance of myself. Oh, and the fact that Nate and I have been sharing our bedroom with his brother so we haven't had any proper alone time.
Don't get me wrong. Despite my deflating here, I've had a good time in my own way. But I am excited about sleeping in my own bed, seeing my cats, and even going back to work. I'm also excited about going back to speaking English. This language barrier gets frustrating sometimes.
Anyway, time to get back to sunshine while avoiding getting burned
