November 13, 2011

• Phew! Finally got that theme sorted out. I'm using the classic Xanga look and feel because I couldn't figure out how to get rid of blue border around the side modules. I added a ticker of my baby's growth progress. My baby will have a heartbeat by the end of the week. How incredible is that?

  My worries are easing a little. At first I was really worried about miscarriage because my mother has a genetic disorder that made it difficult for her to keep a pregnancy. She was pregnant 5 times and I was the only one out of two that made it term and the only one born healthy. I had a little brother who was born, but didn't make it past three days. I suppose it's better to say I'm worried that this genetic disorder was passed on to me. However there is a 50 percent chance of it going either way.

  At the end of the day, it doesn't matter. It was random with her, despite her having it. I made it after all. It wasn't impossible for her to have kids. But, miscarriage unto itself is uncontrollable. Basically, it doesn't matter whether I have this disorder or not, it could happen anyway because that's how nature rolls.

  KNOCK ON WOOD! (I still gotta say it, lol.)

  In my book I read that 20 to 30 percent of pregnancies end in miscarriage and it said that's a high stat. Well, I would like to be optimistic about that statistic and say that 70 to 80 percent of pregnancies go full term. Now THAT is a high stat!

  I'm part of a due date club on justmommies.com. I enjoy spending my time on there and most of the women are already on their third or fourth pregnancies. It's going to be a great resource and support system for me, I think. We all ask questions and share information and support. So far my club is doing well, only one miscarriage, but we're all very early in our first trimesters, only up to 7 weeks so far for those due in the first week of July. I have made a more comforting observation that I would never share with these ladies because there's no point, but I think I'm the youngest mom (to be) in the club. Everyone else is in their thirties...and the likelihood of miscarriage increases into the thirties. I'm only 26, I eat well, I could exercise more, but there's nothing wrong with me either. Not physically, systemically, or otherwise. Other than this possible "genetic disorder" I mentioned, there's nothing that could make one more likely and put me at high risk...at least to my knowledge. I'm not trying to brag, but I just think that maybe I have less to worry about because I'm younger.

  I'm also anxious for things to start happening. I am SO excited about the future bump, though I don't expect to start growing until January. I just want it to be the New Year already when I begin my second trimester. Having said that, when I do make it to my second trimester I am going to celebrate.

  @grizzlybearr - haha! I'm taggin' a-you!  

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