December 9, 2012

• Woo...mellow day today. I was going to take H to the pool, but I got her down for a proper nap. Naps trump anything, especially when said napper is stubborn and refuses to nap more often than not. I even managed to get her in the crib.

  Right now I have a hankering for mulled wine. Being away from all the Christmas hustle and bustle is making me crave it. My friends went to the Vancouver Christmas Market today and I so wish I could have gone with them. I would have brought Hannah and everything...another reason to feel sad about living here. I'd check out the local Christmas fairs here, but the idea of going by myself with just Hannah depresses me. N wouldn't go because he's such a Scrooge.

  I'm really starting to miss our friends and I feel like I can't even talk to N about it because he would just tell me to go out and make new ones. It's not the same. I'm not even sure why, but I have no desire to get out and meet people here. Maybe it's because I'm more desperate to move away than I'm willing to admit. I'm trying so hard to stay positive and enjoy my time here, but I'm getting lonely and yet I have zero interest in trying to make any friends in order to change that. Hmm...no I don't think the winter weather is going to kick my ass like I thought, I think it's the lack friends and wholesome adult interaction that's going to get me.

  I've been considering putting my reservations aside and going to the mom and baby group. Actually, there's a couple, but it's just a matter of getting up early enough and going. This is going to sound REALLY dumb, but if only my hair was long then I wouldn't have shower every morning to make it look nice. I could shower the night before, throw it up in a pony tail or bun and just run out the door. This showering in the morning only business has become inconvenient. It slows me down SO much now that my time is preoccupied with the little one.

  Now that I think about it these programs might be over for the year since Christmas is fast approaching.

  • 7:17 pm
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